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Sadness sets in.. we lost two hamsters in two days.. rest easy my little angels ♡


I don’t tell people about my surgery, that’s why I have this blog. Because I can come on here, talk about my surgery, the good/the bad/the ugly/the amazing/the hurtful, and not be judged or told I took the easy way out. Cuz bitch you best believe literally learning to re-eat and deal with my emotional addiction to food has been anything but easy.

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Dropped 10 water weight pounds gained in the hospital in the 2 days since I’ve been home :)) I hope I start losing my actual weight soon ♡♡♡♡

Rest easy my little handsome man ♡ I came home from surgery wanting to see my little therapy guy, to find a cold little ball :, ( I love you so much Sparky. You had a great life that we knew of, thank you for the memories ♡

Me: But I have about fifty books at home I haven't read, there's no reason for me to buy these.

My brain: Okay, but consider this: more books.

I hate to rely on my pain med for this recovery. But It’s so painful. Even the narcotic just takes the Edge off so I can move around a little with a little less pain.. It’ll all be worth it. How long does this last? I do or did have gastritis before surgery so I’m sure that doesn’t help.

geminihistorian said: The pain stops about day 5 or 6 then you're just pretty sore. I'm doing well having a hard time getting all the protein in. But I just ordered some flavorless so I think that will be easier. Full liquids and purée aren't the same liquids is well just liquid and then purée is a tad thicker like baby food consistency.

Thank you :) I deeply want this pain to ease more lol I can’t wait for it to be gone.

Amazing ♡♡♡♡

I am getting free transportation to and from group therapy sessions in mashpee until a one on one psychologist opens up to come visit me at home! I’m SO excited :)

Still working on getting full Liquids down. But I’ll get it ♡♡ is puree and full liquid the same thing? Does it matter. Or no? Pain management is hard and I always feel like I’m messing it up or going to open my wounds more. But they said it’s okay.

Anonymous said: I'm so happy for you! Lots of love and spoons and gentle hugs

Thank you ♡♡♡♡

Finally discharged, but my friggen phone hasn’t been working for days and I’m in some pain. It’ll be worth it ♡